Four years ago, in a room full of about 13 other women, I took a vow that would change my life forever. In front of my teacher, and everyone else I committed to living life as a magical act for a year and a day. At the time I wasn’t quite sure of what I was committing to, but a voice inside me said Yes! Do it! So I did.
At the end of that year, I was in grad school, on my way to getting my degree in Chinese Medicine and starting my life’s work as a healer. But something more profound than just finding my vocation had happened to me, and shortly after that year was over, I made a commitment to live my whole life as a magical act.
Here are just some of the things that has meant for me:
I came to fully accept that I was a magical being.
I was enrolled in a 4 year program in magical studies, but I always felt like and imposter and a fake. I didn’t think I had any particular magical talents. I didn’t feel like I was psychic, I had never been able to ‘see’ energy or auras. In fact, I was pretty sure that any minute someone was going to point a finger at me and tell me to get out of class. What I learned that year was that we are all magical beings. We are all capable of developing psychic awarness, but more importantly, we all have gifts that no one else has, that is our magic.
I accepted that I was fully in charge of my destiny.
No more excuses or free tickets to pity-ville. If I was going to live my life as if it were magic I had to accept that every thing happens for a reason. Everything has a purpose. I also had to accept that I co-created my own reality with the universe. If I felt like a victim or full of negativity, that is exactly what I was going to create in my life. But if I stood in my own power and called to me that which I desired most, I was able to bring it into being. What a scarey and awesome prospect.
I learned that I was here to do something amazing.
Up until that point I think my biggest life aspiration had been to avoid being eaten by what I saw as the soul killing machine of capitalism. That meant living a life of flexible, but meaningless employment, always being broke and feeling like it was the fault of the system that I was unhappy. But choosing to make this vow I came to realize that my gifts were needed. This is when I began to realize I was a healer, and invested time and money into grad school so that I could open a full time practice.
I also learned to surrender to the fact that I had no idea what my true calling would look like.
In accepting that I was hear to do something special, the next step was realizing that my own attempts to shape that reality actually kept me bound by my own limitations. When I learned to surrender to the Universe (which I think of as the goddess) I learned that life can be so much more wonderful than you could ever imagine. When I look back on what I thought I wanted at the beginning of grad school, I can see now that it would have made me miserable. So by surrendering and being open to the opportunities that life presented with me, I am so much happier.
I learned that when you are ready to do your work, the universe steps up to support you in a million ways.
Just one example. Upon finishing grad school I had some vague ideas of how I wanted to practice. Actually there was one practitioner whom I really looked up to, and if I was going to open a clinic, I really wanted it to be like her clinic. After a couple of months of practicing out of my house and looking for the perfects space, who calls me on the phone? This very practitioner. There was an opening at her clinic and did I want to join them? Um Yes! It made it possible for me to make a living strait out of school. From there I built a thriving practice that not only paid me, but fed my soul in so many ways. It was not uncommon for me to look around while at work and think “I can’t believe I GET to do this for a living!”
Of course making this decision hasn’t meant that things have always been easy, there have been a lot of hard life lessons to learn (more about that in a future post). But I’ve felt ALIVE and CONNECTED in ways I never thought possible, and that has made all the difference.
In what ways has saying yes opened up magic in your life? Leave a comment below.
Allison Carr LAc believes that healing yourself makes the world a better place. Learn more about her work and classes at http://allisoncarr.net/